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No wedgies!

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Today was a good day in my type of history…

I was able to wear boyshorts all day without feeling like I had a giant wedgie to pick.

Score. And since they are only $3 a pop, I might have to invest in more.

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January 30, 2009 at 11:14 pm

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happier love.

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Yay! I went to my naturopath yesterday and she upped my dosage of 5 HTP and suggested institol for help with other stuff, mostly sleep. I must say, my sleep last night felt solid.

THINGS I LOVE.

  • resting my head on Kevin’s shoulder when I cry
  • organizing my office
  • 5 HTP
  • purple eye liner
  • strawberry jam
  • my naturopath, duh.
  • Herb Pharm liquid tinctures
  • sleep that leaves me feeling rested
  • showers and how reviving they feel
  • Fade Into You by Mazzy Star
  • how dirty all the cars in Seattle are
  • tostada salads
  • Frye Boots (I want a pair but not sure which ones.)
  • losing all of my vacation/holiday weight
  • adults with weird names
  • chocolate chip bagels
  • clean kitchens
  • grammar mistakes that Word doesn’t catch
  • that I still have a job
  • body lotions and potions that smell like cookies
  • beds minus dirt from dogs
  • men who love sexy lingerie and but refuse to buy it
  • early spring cleaning
  • new pilates dvds
  • my lingering tax return (where are you?)
  • healthy body images
  • knowing how to ask for help
  • people who make very painful decisions only to know they are doing what will be right for them in the long run (heart break sucks.)

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January 28, 2009 at 11:30 am

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Filed!

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taxes = filed!
yeah bitches!

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January 26, 2009 at 11:42 pm

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1998 sexual flashback.

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Yesterday morning, I had the weirdest thought on the way to work.
Getting up at 5:15am will totally do this to you.
I all of the sudden had this thought about the weirdest sexual experience I ever had, it was fall of 1998. For whatever reason, this guy and I hooked up and had this odd 5 month relationship. (Um, he tried to kill himself when I broke it off.) So the first time we ever had sex was in his bedroom. He was really poor and all sorts of creditors were after him, he only had a mattress in his room, on the floor. So, we got down on his bed and got naked. He then reached over and turned on some black lights. They were the long tubes and there were bulbs on either side of his bed. Um, it was very odd, dark but not so much. We had sex with them on a few times, and I think I finally told him I didn’t dig it. And to this day I still think of this experience as the “what it would be like to have sex in a tanning bed” sex. Oh, and did I mention the house was FULL of people because it was Halloween weekend and there was a massive party at his house?

Edit: Dude, please tell me yours!

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January 26, 2009 at 4:17 pm

Refund, hot damn!

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Because I am super awesome and don’t go out on Friday night because I wake up way to early on Saturday morning, I thought I’d do some fun stuff like my taxes.
I am still waiting on one form from State Farm for my mutual funds. But if I did everything perfectly, I’d be getting back a fucking sweet ass return. Like $1k plusssss. Wow, the possibilities.
I’ve been having anxiety lately and some/most of it has to do with my finances. This is the year I am supposed to get ahead, but my hours at the moment haven’t been at 40. If I get this huge return I can do some things and still have a little cushion in the bank.
Heck yes!

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January 23, 2009 at 11:29 pm

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Lets get back to healthy.

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I’ve very excited.
I found my old naturopath! She is still a preferred provider for Aetna! Hopefully she can help me pin point my fatigue and maybe help with my anxiety.
Basically, it is time for me to go to the doctor. I think the last time I was at a doctor was in early 2007. I had a physical and got an IUD.
I love having a job with benefits.

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January 21, 2009 at 5:08 pm

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truely, madly, deeply… love list.

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Wow. I’ve been totally down lately. It’s sucky. But, I’ve enjoyed my “weekend.” I watched the inaugural speech Obama gave, I love how well he speaks. I have to say, again, his speech made me water up a bit. Thank you wireless connection for letting me watch his speech on CNN.com and not flip out a bit or stall like you do when I want to watch crap on Youtube.com

THINGS I LOVE.

  • my mom when she listens and doesn’t try to offer advice
  • Kevin
  • th Obamas
  • how excited Abigail gets for a biscuit when we go to an espresso stand
  • knowing where to find a newspaper on a historic day when everywhere else you stop is sold out
  • the joy a latte can bring
  • bubble bath that some times bubbles and some times doesn’t
  • Loyal Army Clothing’s shirts and tote bags
  • Twinkie Chan’s tattoos
  • honesty
  • finding the courage to be honest about how I’m doing. Go me!!
  • Dinners, Drive-ins, and Dives
  • friends that send me links to a site that could give me cheese making skills
  • free wine samples that you actually enjoy
  • sleeping in past 11
  • thoughts of a nice, warm summer vacation
  • lower cut square necklines
  • Uggs and how everyone says they are super ugly, yet has some sort of deep rooted passion for them because it is like wearing clouds on your feet.. And people, they are not snow boots!
  • Abigail curled up on Kevin’s sweatshirt, for a nap
  • people who have great planning skills

THINGS I CURRENTLY DON’T LOVE

  • fog hiding my sun that I desperately need
  • feeling down
  • mold
  • being cold
  • people and their awesome parking lot maneuvering skills
  • having to wait week or so to get my new pilates dvd

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January 20, 2009 at 5:03 pm

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Moms know best, mostly.

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Oh mom.
I love you, sometimes more than others. I understand to you really don’t understand depression and you lending a listening ear is the best you can do.
But, you do seem to understand sleep and what a huge effect the lack of sleep has on people. Thank you for your tips, I already knew all of them. And thank you for the $9 to go buy Tylenol PM. While it totally isn’t up my alley to take stuff such as this, I really do thank you for being supportive. I bought it and I’ll try it just this once. Your idea of taking Benadryl was a total flop leaving me hung over, maybe this time will be better.
-J

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January 19, 2009 at 9:03 pm

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Sleep is serious business.

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Yesterday was a prime example of how awesome I can be without a decent amount of sleep. Not only was I super tired, but the nap I tried to take was a total flop. I know I was a pain to deal with last night… Kevin told me.

Why am I so fatigued? All the time? My anemia is under control. Are my cortisol levels out of whack again? Are my hormones  trying yet again to tell me they are in charge? Or has all the stress from the past 2 months finally caught up with me, yet again?

Maybe I need to get my butt back to a naturopath and have them help me with this… again. As I’ve said in the past, sleep is serious business.

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January 19, 2009 at 12:27 pm

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Winter is gray.

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Yay winter. 63 days left.

Today is supposed to have a high of 42°. Um, it’s after 1pm and its only 35°. Why do they bother to predict the weather in the Seattle area?

Speaking of winter. I love winter and all the gray. But, with winter comes all the talk of weight loss, depression and budgeting. Blah. Yup, I’m doing the whole weight loss and work out bit but I have been since May. Yup, I have depression, I have since I was a kiddo. Budget, yeah I need to… my hours at work have been not so super.  Seriously? This is why I don’t watch a lot of tv. I have a mixed relationship with advertising.

I’ll only blog about weight loss. For some reason I don’t find it to be a private as depression and how much I do not have in my checking account. Besides, its the only 1 out of the 3 you can see.

I lost 1.6 pounds last week, only 4 more to get to where I was back in November. Super.

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January 16, 2009 at 2:30 pm

Love list 1.13.09

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Love love love. Love is such a strange thing. Actually, I find just more that relationships are strange things. It amazes the crap out of me that people can have such large circles of friends, and they are actual friends. Yeah, I need to work on relationships this year, with people and not things.

THINGS I LOVE.

  • Kevin
  • lacy bras with limited support
  • dogs who listen to commands
  • fixing my credit
  • Boiron Arnica Gel
  • the 2.5mile  walk at Seward Park
  • Couch to 5k
  • free bottles of wine to sample, for work?
  • sturdy coffee cups
  • Fiber One Oats & Caramel Bars
  • Seth Rogen’s little fro
  • Your Mom! jokes and comments
  • Hello Kitty
  • messy bed hair
  • well manicured nails
  • worn in track jackets
  • french presses
  • the way steam rises off of coffee
  • baby corn snakes
  • black eyeliner that stays put
  • funny movies that make me cry instead of laugh
  • rose essential oil
  • Vietnamese sandwiches
  • steamed parsnips with nutmeg
  • honey
  • the mochas from Blenz in Whistler that Kevin and I still rave about… we had it in the beginning of November
  • my shrinking tea stash
  • Marc Jacob’s Spring 09 collection

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January 13, 2009 at 1:06 pm

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an American way.

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Holy crap.

Yes. Hello, I am an American and I love stuff. And if it happens to be free, I love it even more.

I love beauty products. I love supplements. For a while I was working in HABA (aka health and beauty aides in the grocery/retail industry) and I got free samples of things like it was going out of style. But since I love beauty products, lotions and potions and oh my… I bought a lot of stuff too. I still get free samples now and then but now I try and score stuff I already use, like fish oil.
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So now that we have this really rad bathroom with a beautiful pedestal sink, we lack cupboard underneath. All of my crap is now in the medicine cabinet or the linen closet. All of my stuffs, free or paid for, is taking up valuable space!
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So I’ve decided not to buy any more stuffs unless it is totally needed. I’m on mission to use stuff up! Operation:Use It! Totally dumb, I know. But, when I shin splints the other day I bought Arnica because I couldn’t find any. This morning I found 3 tubes!
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Last year I stopped buying excess shampoo and conditioner. This year, I just plan to buy less of everything. I can say I pretty much don’t need a thing.

Remember peeps: Free is only awesome and great if it is something you know you’ll use or something you already use.

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January 12, 2009 at 2:18 pm

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