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Happy Thanksgiving!

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Happy Thanksgiving.
I’m thankful for so much…
…my parents for knowing how to deal with me in those weird gross moments in life, Kevin for everything, Abigail for being a great dog, relatives that drive me batty, old friendships that linger in the dark, new friendships with great possibilities, fitness, my new appreciation for yoga, the amazing co-op that I still work for after almost 8 years, knowing when to listen to my body, my health, all of my teeth, snow covered mountains, vegetables, hot tea, a car that doesn’t breakdown, being 194.8lbs!, the internets, gut feelings, and a roof over our head.

Life is beautiful, trust me.

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November 26, 2009 at 3:01 pm

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And then 4 became 3.

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Porter is gone. I know where he is going, but I’m tricking myself into believing he’s going to have an amazing set of parents in his next excursion after he is evaluated… good bye, pal. OH MY GOD! The mother fucking drama llama is following this dog… I’m so fucking fed up with it now! I no longer have a fucking pet but a foster animal until Tuesday…

So. After bawling, a lot, I decided that I needed to go to the gym this moring and bust my ass. But, I had to pick stuff up at my folks house and spent to much time there. My kick ass workout only lasted an hour due to having to meet up with someone else for lunch.

Being upset and having great music really pushed me to work harder.

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November 19, 2009 at 6:31 pm

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Love list 11.18.09

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So. Its Wednesday. I did yoga this morning, went for a walk, went to Lululemon, went to Whole Foods and came home. I’ve had a great few eye-opening moments in the past 2 weeks or so. I feel so awesome and full of love and inspiration… but it’s very weird how I got to this point. I’ve learned that I really need to start doing more things on my own and for myself.


  • a strong man who talks reason into me
  • dogs, even ones who can’t live with us… (Porter’s last night with us is tonight)
  • LIFE
  • stretching
  • oatmeal
  • raw almond butter
  • tea
  • paper stores
  • how versatile quinoa is
  • lists
  • the perfect brush for eye makeup
  • walks with pals
  • having a co-worker also be a yoga teacher!
  • Clean Eating magazine
  • the search for a good holiday mug
  • bargins
  • POM mixed with sparkling water (I recently tried the blueberry and didn’t like it as much as the mango.)
  • wind
  • Meet Me Half Way
  • crazy purchases of Juicy earrings (I love them!)
  • my secret love of pop music
  • reduced amounts of caffeine
  • Martha Stewart Living‘s December issue

Everything was beautiful and nothing hurt. -KV


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November 18, 2009 at 4:02 pm

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No love for this week.

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This week was pretty decent. I had four days of. Yes, 4! It was nice and I did what I wanted. I had some great discovery moments. I got to be a geek and look at lots of christmas trees. I drink a nice bottle of wine over a few days. I consumed less sugar and coffee. I drank tea twice a day. I tried new product and recipes and they’re a total hit! I went to a stamping party…

But then there was the whole Porter thing. Wednesday ended with a lot of tears on my part. Thursday started with a lot of tears on Kevin’s part. Friday ended with Porter being a jerk and trying to nip me while I was sitting on the floor atempting yoga and playing with both dogs.

The whole situation is uneasy for Kevin and I for so many reasons. We had nothing but love and a secure home to offer and our hearts have been broken. There is a furry creature in our house that makes us not want to be in our house until he leaves, even though he seems very lazy and harmless. We are ready to move on. We still plan on being great hosts to him but I can’t wait for him to be gone when I come home on Sunday night.

So for this week, there will be no love list. We found something to love but it didn’t work out. I have plenty of things I’m in love with right now, but I’ll save them all for when there isn’t gloominess and strange tension in my house… When there isn’t a dog in my house, who I do love, who is trying to nip me when I reach out to pet him while I’m stretching. WTF.

I’ll post a love list on Wednesday, next week.

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November 13, 2009 at 11:10 pm

Cha cha cha changes!

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Look at this yummy bowl of stuff I made for lunch!

  • 1/3 cup red quinoa
  • 2/3 cup water
  • hand full of washed and trimmed brussels sprouts, halved and sautéed in some EVOO and cayenne
  • 1 tbsp tahini
  • 1 tbsp Tapatío sauce
  • 1 tsp olive oil

So I’m changing my ways, again. I’ve been inspired by strange things, again. It has to do with being healthy, again.

(This post might be long, but no one reads my blog anyway.)

So. I went to Napa and Oregon and had a wonderful time. I gained 5 pounds in 2 weeks but was okay with it because I had limited exercise, lots of great beer and wine, and consumed a lot of bread.  I cut out the bread again and lost the 5 pounds. Since I have returned home, mind you this was August, I have been trying to be wheat free. I feel better without wheat… no bloating, no painful gas, and my skin seems to look the best it has looked a long time. I feel lighter, even when the scale says I’m not.

Since I’ve been home I’ve also gone on crazy walks, done lots of stretching and did one session of my Pilates DVD. Yay exercise! My back loves it when I have my crap together and exercise. But, the weather has started to turn and it has been on and off rainy. Oh Seattle, sometimes you make me wonder why I love you… What is one to do for exercize when walking in the rain bums you out?

So. Where does this leave me? Um, I guess it leaves me to using google reader and reading about other people and their lives and clicking on their links and winding up at Heather Eats Almond Butter. Heather is truly beautiful and looks so healthy and radiant! She seemed to have this love for kabocha squash, oats, and almond butter. I added her to google reader and looked forward to her posts. She too is a massage therapist, although she still does it professionally I don’t.

Okay, and her is the bit about Weight Watchers and how I’m not sure on where to go from here. I joined Weight Watchers in May of 2008 at a ripe weight of 230. Right away I lost weight, I was stoked. The program really worked. But I was a slow weight loser. I also gained a few times. It is now November 2009. I’m so sick of counting points. I’ve learned so many things. I’ve changed my BMI to overweight instead of obese. I discovered last year, after gaining 8 pounds and caving, I really enjoy the meetings and my leader. For a while, I was obsessed with weight loss. But now, I’m sort of over it and want to be more fit and lean. I’m 31 and I feel beautiful but I need to eat better and focus my energy on something else now.

Hmm. So I’m looking at these blogs about all these amazing healthy people who look fantastic and do yoga a few times a week. Hey, I can do that! I can do yoga in my spare room in the basement. I can be lean if I do Pilates a few times a week? Sweet. I can eat a bunch of oats for 2 points instead of a packet of oatmeal with extra shit in it that I don’t need for 2 points? I can roast any sort of veggie I want! I can buy all this amazing food at a discount, be in the kitchen and make myself healthier, too! I don’t want to join a gym again, but I can stop at the community center and work out on their equiptment for $3 when I choose? All these great resources are around me, but sometimes I guess it takes a bit for this to click.

Maybe this all started when I decided I was going to give up bread and wheat after vacation. Or maybe I’m bored. Maybe I feel better knowing winter is on it’s way and am looking for motivation to stay busy. Either way, I think I like where it is going.  And after having this thing not work out with our new dog, I’m happy to have a focus just up ahead.

So back to the whole Weight Watchers thing… I’ve decided to eat the way I feel like I should be eating. No soy, no wheat, less sugar, less coffee, more grains, more tea. I’ll walk my crazy walks when I can. I’ll work out at the community center once a week. I’ll do yoga and Pilates at home. I’ll track points and still a Weight Watchers member for the next 2 months.  But, I won’t stress about my grains being high in points. I won’t stress that 1 tablespoon of almond butter is 2 points. I’ll eat when I’m hungry. I’ll eat better meals. I’ll eat less crap. I’ll eat less sugar. I’ll track points and weigh in every week, but not freak about my points.

Cha cha changes!

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November 12, 2009 at 1:59 pm

And then we said goodbye…

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Sadly, we are going to be giving our dog, Porter, back to the place from which he came. When we orginally took him, it was stated that we could if it didn’twork out.

He’s an amazing dog. He’s not dog agressive. He’s not food agressive. He’s lazy. He’s loving. He sort of listens to commands, this would improve with training. He’s great… except that he has growled at me once and Kevin twice.

He growled at me once when I was trying to put him in his crate. I actually thought he might try to turn around and bite my hand. He apparently doesn’t like to have his collar pulled on. I put his choke chain on and this helped.

He growled at Kevin once when Kevin was trying to drag him from the front yard when he didn’t recall, again this was when Kevin was trying to pull on his collar. And, last night when they were playing on the couch.. and not a playful growl either. Kevin was playing with him the same way he would play with Abigail.

The problem is this… if he’ll growl at his owners, he could end up biting someone. We like to have our dog with us. He could bite someone else or a kid. He won’t be able to either one of our parents’ house due to them having cats. He wouldn’t be able to go to Kevin’s family’s ranch and run free. If he were to go places with us, he would always have to be on a leash. We are starting to gain more small children in our lives.. not ours but friends and family.

We are both truely sad by this decission, but we both know it is the best possible one. As I fight through my tears, I know that I’d be very upset if he hurt anyone I know or made a small child fear animals.

I love you Porter, I’m very sorry we can’t keep you. I’m very sad to have to let you go. I’m also afriad of what your future might entail…




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November 12, 2009 at 11:18 am

Whats a Weight Watcher to do?

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So I have dilemma…

I’ve lost 35ish pounds with Weight Watchers. The program really works. I thought the meetings weren’t my thing but I really enjoy them. But, I’m really over the whole counting points bit.

I either need to get my shit together and get back to counting points or move on and use some of the skills I learned at Weight Watchers and just use them for the rest of my life.

Or, maybe just take the month off? I’m really unsure on what I want to do… I know part of it has had to do with my post summer funk but blah…

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November 10, 2009 at 5:07 pm

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