Crabby Cake

Just the way I see things…

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Let it go.

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Why is letting go so hard?

I’m my life I’ve let go of a lot..or come to terms with things being what they are… mostly an awful heart break, issues with my mom, bad medical guidance, and nasty abusive stuff. When I finally let these items go, I stopped crying over them. These items were huge and consumed my thoughts way more than I like to admit, this was a huge bit of my self-created suffering.

I’m so proud of myself for letting go of these things that were so huge to me… But then comes the little things… the insurance adjuster who like to talk to me like I’m 10 and interrupts me but likes to tell me to let her finish talking when I try to finish what I was saying. or the lab tech who messed up my Celiac test. or the medical office that insists that I only paid half of my co-pay (which has been the same for almost 8 years) but since I don’t have a receipt and paid cash, I can’t prove I’m right.

I find it sad that we so easily forget some of the great experiences and remember the ones that have created us pain or discomfort.

This is me, trying to let go of the negativity and savor the awesomeness!

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April 21, 2010 at 11:50 am

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The second day, of the rest of my life.

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On a day where I feel 50% better than I did the day before… I was hoping for sunshine and rainbows with pots of gold in my backyard and fuzzy puppies wanting kisses… but naw. I live in Seattle and its a typical winter gray day and the backyard still needs mowing and dishes still need washing.

I love run-on sentences.

Tests are being done, I’m waiting for the results.

Today will be day 2 of going back to being gluten free. I guess I’m sort of in detox mode.

Shanti.

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March 11, 2010 at 10:43 am

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Hello, next life.

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What if today was the first day of the rest of your life?

What would you do differently?

I’m changing my life today, for good. From this day forward, I won’t be eating gluten in any form. No more beer. No more spelt toast. No more panko on sushi. No more breaded or battered stuffs. No more horribly upset stomachs. No more bullshit.

I won’t be tested until next Wednesday at the earliest. I’m changing my diet a week early, I’m okay with skewed results.I felt so amazing last week, and thats really all I want. I need to feel less depressed, less fatigued, no more tingling in hands and feed, less headaches, not have itchy skin, and fewer bathroom issues… I just want to feel less of anything that ails me. I want to feel less of anything that has been an issue or occurrence for the past 8 years.

I want to feel good all the time.

Hi, my name is Jackie and I’m gluten free. I’m looking forward to see what this will bring me. I want the challenge if it means being as healthy as I wish I can be. I don’t feel deprived.

Today is, the first day of the rest of my life.

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March 3, 2010 at 10:51 am

Life is good.

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Wow.

So I had today off. I was called and asked if I wanted to work overtime. I said no. I think my boss was a bit crushed but nope, I didn’t want to. I had/have chores today and had a date with my dog at the park. I was supposed to be off on Monday but swapped days off for today. I needed my day off.

Later while basking in the sun, chilling in my back yard…. I was petting the dog and said “life is good.”

Yes.

Out loud.

Like those cheesy shirts that you can find at REI or outdoorish type sporting good store.

If you would have told me a year ago that I’d be much happier and relaxed in a years time, I would have laughed. If you would have told me I’d be more relaxed about money, I would have laughed. If you would have said I’d enjoy being 30, I’d have laughed too.

I guess I’ve figured out some stuff this year. I’ve learned. I’ve realized attitude is really important. I’ve realized the only one I can change is myself. But the best part is, I’ve learned this all on my own.. No classes, no self help books, no serious talks with mom. All has fallen into place and then fell into my lap.

I like it.

I still have no idea where I’m going in life. But I feel great about it.

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May 23, 2009 at 3:40 pm

This has been a really long week, as I predicted it would be.

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Today was one of those days.

One would have thought that after getting a massage and a good crack yesterday would made it so I could conquer the world today. Apparently I could for all of 6 hours. The last 2 hours at work were fought through. I also felt pretty klutzy all day! I broke a bottle of wine within the first hour I was at work. I ran into all sorts of things. I think the klutziness/brain fog is a result of the car accident and my body being so out of whack.

After working for 8 hours, doing grocery shopping, going to the mall only to realize they changed their hours and were closing up shop as I got there, head to Target and only found Fiber One bars and Weight Watchers candy to buy, and going to Fred Meyer to buy deodorant and shave gel but not razors because they were to expensive…. I am beat. Oh, and I had a crappy hair day.

And all I really want to do is crawl into bed and listen to a podcast or two. But, this morning I accidentally removed them all, all 158 of them.

I win at sucking today.

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March 20, 2009 at 11:06 pm

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