It maybe hot, but I don’t want to see your flab.

So it has been hot in these parts, or I guess Seattle…

And I’ve seen so many overly, over weight people in little amounts of clothing on.

The truth is, it grosses me out.

Yeah, okay wait..

Yes, I weigh 200 pounds. And at one point in time I weighed 58 pounds more.

But, I don’t leave the house with my gut, ass or tits hanging out all over the place.  I try to wear clothing that fits properly. I make sure you can’t see my underware or bra.  If it is 90° and you happen to see my underware or bra, you must be sitting next to me on my back porch, in my basement, or in my bedroom.

It may be hot but have some class.

But this also makes me want to run up to people and tell them “Weight Watchers will set you free!!” Cut the shit and try something that really works!

Maybe some people are really content being fat and looking like hell, but I’m not one of them.

And remember, sluts….

If you’re going to wear bright lipstick, brush your teeth. Nothing says hot like staring at your mouth and wonder if the last thing you ate was a whole loaf of bread.

I’m going to a going away party tonight for my friend Jen. The crazy thing is I worked with her in the past at a spa 5 years ago, and she left me then, too. I asked her is she was coming back again, just to leave me again. She laughed and said hopefully not. I love ya Jen, good luck in Lake Tahoe!

I’m wearing bright red lip gloss, I brushed my teeth.

Peace, I love the word peace.

I’m having one of those moments. The one that goes something like “aaahh, I’m at peace with myself.”

I had my annual review at work last week. All I can say is “hell yes!” Basically my boss said I’m a great staff member with the most cross training in our store. She also wants to see me be more confidant in what I know. Hey, I can totally do that! She also is really pushing me to learn more about beer and wine. Hey, I’m getting my pouring license today! Oh, and I got the whole talk less to distract other staff members less, again. Even thought I’m professionally trained as a massage therapist, I love that I’m working where I’m working. I think if anyone will help me get ahead in the company, it will be my current boss. I’m very happy that she is at my location and I hope she stays. I also feel pretty awesome that I can’t really think of anything bad to say about the company I work for, even after almost 7 years. I love what we do, stand for, and how much we are involved in the communities we are in.

I also feel like I have my money under control. Getting my tax return helped with this. I paid extra on my credit cards. I’m using Microsoft money to help me organize my bills. I finally have just one student loan to pay off, I’ve already paid off three.

My goal for the next few months is to stay on track with Weight Watchers and not lose and gain the same 5 pounds over and over. I’m so close to being under 200. I haven’t been under 200 since 2002 or late 2001. I’m finally back to where I can say, I gained a crap load of weight on Paxil but I’ve lost 50lb of it. I feel like my goal of 155 is so far off, but I’m very “eyes on the prize” right now. I’m going to Napa this summer and I want to wear little sun dresses!! I’m thinking about getting a tattoo of my highest weight on my ribcage as a reminder of how far I’m come and where I never want to go back to.

I also want to start looking more polished. I feel that being fatter has always given me an excuse to not look good, things never fit right! (as I say this I’m lounging in sweats and a Hanes tee) I actually know a thing or two about style, I just have been larger and poorer than I am at the moment. I’ve already invested in a beautiful pair of boots. (boots first because I’ll always be a size 9, no matter how big my ass is) I’m ready to invest in staples, and staples are where its at! Invest in the classic pieces that will look great in 5 years. And with the way the economy is going, why would you want to invest in trendy anything?

And lastly, I can’t wait for Kevin and I to be able to buy a house. I love the little house we are in now. We both have offices. We don’t have to commute to work. We have a yard with lots of potential. I really hope we can buy this house.

Welcome a new classic to the closet.

Hmm. If someone would have said the classiest plain black pump you’ll find at Nordstrom would be by BCBG, I might have laughed.

After deciding to try on women’s shoes more than juniors shoes, I found these. Totally classic, plain and versatile. No weird trendy embellishments, no crazy square toes, not pointy, and pretty damn comfortable.

They actually replace the last pair of classic black pumps I had… the ones my mom bought me in 1997, when I was a senior in HS. Hopefully, I’ll take amazing care of them and I’ll have them for 10 years as well…. until I’m 40?

Black bras with white t-shirts?

Dear leathery looking lady @ Target-
Maybe you don’t know this… but they have dressing rooms in this store. That black bra you tried on over your tee shirt (and probably a bra you have on underneath) was totally hot. I’m thinking you might like the way it fits if you were to actually go to a changing room and try it on there. Next to your skin. Like you would actually wear it in real lifes.
I’m just saying.
And my 2 bits of advice would be a)Do not buy bras at Target. Good quality bras that are built to last aren’t something they sell here. Go to Nordstrom or Macy’s, yo! b)Stay out of the sun already! Your face looks like a weathered Louis Vuitton purse, and not in a good way.

XOXOX
-J

My future is so dull but I still need shades.

I had to take my Coach sunglasses back to Nordstrom, again. This time the lens was not in right and looked like it could eventually pop out. They didn’t have the burgundy at the location I was at so I went with black. I suppose I could have gotten a different style altogether but I really like the shape. The girl asked if I wanted to find them at another location… um no, I’m here now and it’s 75 degrees out.

3rd pair in 2 years.

I heart Nordstrom’s return policy.

bye bye tack factor.

I love it when the women cry when they cut off their shitty hair on What Not to Wear. Don’t you people watch tv or read magazines and notice that your hair looks fried and dated?

Also, why do so many women suffer in the wrong bra size? GET FITTED.

Weak link.

A few weeks ago I was having a day from hell and I ordered myself a hot new piece of jewelery. From Smallthings.com. I’ve seen their pieces around town and often thought I needed one.

It FINALLY came.

I went to put it on and the link on chain holding it to the jump ring broke.

SADNESS!

I called them and of course they’d gladly repair it and are really super sorry. But shit, it felt like I waited all month for this thing and then to get it and it breaks before I can even wear it once?! Grr.

Cute as hell, no?